Pissed Off !

Im so damn piss off for the whole freaking day, one of them is bout my booking out timing, they just had to delay our booking time, when we had less than 3 days of being outside, well nevermind this.

Went home, to rest awhile than head of to era with jevon and groups, if i known i shouldnt have been there today, it just again pissed me off to see her with another guy, well cant do much, it aint my choice, time would go back to where we started i would never let this happen, whats done is done, she distance herself from me, and looking to the guy that was next to her today. Feel like walking towards you just to say hi, to hear your voice once again, but i didnt do so , it felt like we were stranger, enough about this , cos it wont happen i think.

Watch phobia 2, dam scare i was like using both hands to cover my ears and my cap to cover my eyes as usual if i were to watch any horror movie. Also im so pissed of with justin with his bloody attitude, i talked to him nicely and yet he had to scream at me, well it isnt the first time i talked to him about his attitude, but seems he didnt get me well enough, yes it the way how you treats your friends, well not all friends are the same, if i were to talk to you nice please respect and talk to me nicely back the same way. I felt like punching him very much at that time, but it will make me no different from a gangster if i were to touch him, also no different from himselfs, well lucky i wasnt how i was in the past. enough said.

A Feeling . !

I feel like im a fully grown adult somehow, that feeling is just to cool to be explain. !
3 more days to my hell day, well need to have a really strong mind set, anyone care to support me ? c: Thanks danson for making me feel like a adult,


Oh im not gay, !

thanks you ,

Gosh, time pass fast eh ? quickly I'm gonna start my course, hm can say already started, the hell and full of shitness im gonna ever get . ! Xiong is the word.
Went to eat some Korean stuff which potion and zann organise i suspose, glad that peeps see changes in me, and thanks alot.

In Camp

Woah, right now im in camp, just got to know bout my posting and i got what i wanted. Kinda happy yet thinking of many other stuff. Aww guardsman! I've gonna stop eating if not all the training would be a total waste, jogging anyone, every saturday?


What are your thoughts? Share them with me will you =)

:(

M, is something going on ? Well, just tell me.

To you.

I'm shocked that you would reply to my post in such a way but why ? Could i ask ? If it mean really something to you , you would never give it back to me no matter what, also you passed to someone to pass it to me , something so important to me of cause. Still i threw it again, what good would it bring me ? A hope for you to come back ? i figure that you will never come back at all cost. I've been honest with you, as you once told me to , to share and to tell you whatever I'm feeling , thinking and planning to you, i did, well how about yourself ? Why am i , always in this kind of situation.? You said, i let you down, i admit i did let you down in a way that i do not know how to handle that kind of situation, because it didn't happen to me before, well how you choose to handle that? Breaking up and moving on to the next guy so quickly ? Sorry if i offended you in some way, That time you still choose to trust that guy, that saying I'm trying to use sort or trick get you back and to push the blame away from my self to him ? Disappointed i am that point of time. I'm still unhappy about some stuff but what can i do ? well i just have to stuff it down my throat, . You never know how hard it has been for me this few months , and i can see your enjoying. This phrase '' Loving someone means letting them go or Happiness is when you watch your loves one be happy'' i say it is bullshit, letting your love one go is definitely suffering . Keeping a secret, with my best friend and me flaring up? Anyone will also flare up, reason like afraid of letting me know than i flare up ? Thats like totally bullshit, If you were me, and i hide stuff with one of your girlfriends , you would break up , but i didnt choose to break up . You did. So What gonna happen next?

From Me

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Just finish watching 'Gamer' full of action pack i tell you ! . It was like god damn great show althought there are many nude parts which i do not wanna share. Like someone told, if it was you watching with me, i would be damn happy.

Well i've just lost a 6 year friendship, didnt know what to say or how to save that friendship, i know you well brother and i know you wont change your mind. so that shall be the way if you want. ! Lifes bored, gonna booking this sunday, time passes really fast. People warn me about stuff, but i didnt wanna listen, cause M, i just think your worth it, i hope i wont regret . Thanks for everything.

Bye?

Goodbye to old memeries, Keeping them wouldn't be any good for me either, i knew you wouldn't come back to me at all cost, there no point is there? I threw the very 2 precious ring away just like that. You didnt felt a thing back than, at this point of time why should i too ? M not to worry im feeling all right . Thanks for whatever that happen latey, like you said, step by step, i will . :)

Shaked !

POP day was on 4th of september, Thx M for coming it just meant alot to me, Really. Right now im so darn tired, well my dad really shake me alot, as i see so much blood shooting right from his legs, well cause he had a operation in the early morning and that he tried to walk towards me and D wound just let go. It was like the first time i seen so much blood, well both my sis and mom was like shock and didnt know what to do, they just stared at each other, thinking about it really makes me smile.
Well, M, he wasnt your father to care or to be worried about it , yet your reaction, didnt know how to explain. Thanks alot, althought you wasnt there physically but you had show care. Im sure, i didnt make the wrong choice myself. thanks loves <3

77 points more to go !