Waiting,

its like im meant to be here waiting,
Baby i wouldnt mind , waiting for you, for the rest of my this life,

Sadly,. well, nevermind i shall not mention whats going through me right now,

):

It beens sometime since i last blog-ed , Baby im so stressful right now, my familys, and you've been out of town, i dont know who to turn to, or who to talks to , baby , hurry back pleasee..




i miss you,
& i love you,

If not for you ,

If Not For You


If not for you, I wouldn’t know
What true love really meant.
I’d never feel this inner peace;
I couldn’t be content.


If not for you, I’d never have
The pleasures of romance.
I’d miss the bliss, the craziness,
Of love’s sweet, silly dance.


I have to feel your tender touch;
I have to hear your voice;
No other one could take your place;
You’re it; I have no choice.


If not for you, I’d be adrift;
I don’t know what I’d do;
I’d be searching for my other half,
Incomplete, if not for you.


By Joanna Fuchs

Im out of time !

Ahh, just got home, bought many many stuff, clothes , keyboards and of course stuff needed to make your gift, be honor that im doing this for the first time alright <3


Morning Booking in to sleep ,~

wait,

I wait,
I waited,
I'm Waiting,
I'm still waiting,
I would just wait, right where you want me too,


(:

:c

He misses you Devon,

Guardsman! c:

I'm home, right after my POP as a guardsman ! The Feeling was damn shiok, even it was super-ly shag for everyone that had pass out. Must sewing had to be done on the Uniform. !
Rush to book out, met up with Devon, went pasir ris and had my late dinner, Watched Orphan, Interesting but irritating hahas , got Afew times. c:



Loves your scents,

Loves c:

You, must be clubbing at this very moment, hope you had fun. Today my afternoon was totally a great moment for me , thanks to my precious DEVON! Thanks you c:
Watched '' Loves Happen'' Great Movie and a kinda sad also, finally im starting to get use to being around you, beside you. It just feel so great.


Also you made me addict to that chocolate ! Im eating it as im typing, sore throat pretty soon.
Saw da video, cute c:

Stop feeding me, im gonna be fat pretty soon (T.T)!
Im missing you right now.

regret.

I miss a great opportunity last night, which I miss took it for something else,

Am I thinking too much? Or your really treating me cold? I would just be patient, by the coner,

My parade I really want you to be there, like you said as someone special, like yourself.


Current mood : lousy

Desperate

Im back from field camp, and had never feel so stress and shag about it. Its one of the worst. Even till now i cant even believe i've done it, but anyways tekong had one great things during the night, that is the stars, during the nights i didnt relise till i was too shag, untill i just lied flat on the floor, than i only saw this much stars, how great would it be with you were there with me eh ? Devon ?..
Nth much but Next week is my ROP day, been waiting for it like Soon long, and its finally nearing me.

This 4 days had been tough for me, yet i pull through as i had you in mind, im already on a different level from you, even stuff like this i cant do it, im just useless.

Missing you badly.

Smiling Throughout.

Im leaving house to meet you for Dinner soon ! Smile, just Keep coming out from me, sister thought i was crazy enough to smile at the computer while im blogging. Too happy guess, Still im starting to think about what im going to say later. :c

Thoughts

Thanks you for accompanying me during my fast march, it meant alot to me, just hope that i didnt bored you too much. Well, to be honest, i can't forget how sweet you were just now. Right now, im suppose to be talking to you on the phone, but you fell asleep! If only i could be beside you watching you sleep. When i close my eyes, i tend to think about you, why i do not know, but its clear that im so into you. Well, i tried finding your phone for you, but it didnt turn out well, yet my friend had to rush me home, he was tired. Im sorry.
After every single meet up, i just feel meeting up with you again right away, dont know why. My parade you are so got to come, a must for you.
My last Post was meant for DevonChan ! The 'you' Refers to You c:




Devon, you just make me lost c:

Decision

I'm going all out for you. c:

Drank.

Opps, training was tough as usual, but somehow get to drink with veronice, ee jun , and sam, feeling bad was veronice's mom was paying for all the drinks and not giving a single cent, well . Oh veronice's uncle and mom are scary, drink alot, and kept asking me and jun to drink and drink , ahhh , it a killer ! i met devon ! wahahas sorry i was shy back than thats why =) hope you would understand, feel hounor alright . Hubert is seldom lost for words . ! Looking forward to the next meet up . c:

tattoo-ed!

Had my Rose on my back donee ! shall post the photo , some other time cause my computer just totally break down !
just came back from prawning and supper from changi, dam piss off didnt caught any prawns for 3 hours how could this happen!! while mike's sis caught like so manyyyy !! piss piss piss piss !
booking in real soon later in the night 8pm ! than monday marksman ship, well home i get markmanship ! hard cans !


I want you De***Ch**, your just 1 of a kind!

boredom !

Currently having a off day, given from my company c: Last night, Denson came to fetch me, along with jun and jiawen, went for a super full supper at railway station, i never thought that the place is still there, well the muslim food there wasnt that bad, Finish! Move on to some so called ''sight seeing'' that they had in mind, well shall not say what it is .
Confinement was cancel, im so damn lucky but aint good to spread, as it isnt fair for the rest, in case they complain, me and my sgt would be dead. Got a call from Devon, ai yo your so drunk , ! but rather cute . hahas ! gonna book in pretty so today night , being at home is so bored,. Tattoo saturdayy!!

Lazyness !

Im so lazy to update my blog right now , mostly because theres nth much that happen recently , just come field camp which really wore me out.

Hurry come back Singapore, i just cant wait !

Pissed Off !

Im so damn piss off for the whole freaking day, one of them is bout my booking out timing, they just had to delay our booking time, when we had less than 3 days of being outside, well nevermind this.

Went home, to rest awhile than head of to era with jevon and groups, if i known i shouldnt have been there today, it just again pissed me off to see her with another guy, well cant do much, it aint my choice, time would go back to where we started i would never let this happen, whats done is done, she distance herself from me, and looking to the guy that was next to her today. Feel like walking towards you just to say hi, to hear your voice once again, but i didnt do so , it felt like we were stranger, enough about this , cos it wont happen i think.

Watch phobia 2, dam scare i was like using both hands to cover my ears and my cap to cover my eyes as usual if i were to watch any horror movie. Also im so pissed of with justin with his bloody attitude, i talked to him nicely and yet he had to scream at me, well it isnt the first time i talked to him about his attitude, but seems he didnt get me well enough, yes it the way how you treats your friends, well not all friends are the same, if i were to talk to you nice please respect and talk to me nicely back the same way. I felt like punching him very much at that time, but it will make me no different from a gangster if i were to touch him, also no different from himselfs, well lucky i wasnt how i was in the past. enough said.

A Feeling . !

I feel like im a fully grown adult somehow, that feeling is just to cool to be explain. !
3 more days to my hell day, well need to have a really strong mind set, anyone care to support me ? c: Thanks danson for making me feel like a adult,


Oh im not gay, !

thanks you ,

Gosh, time pass fast eh ? quickly I'm gonna start my course, hm can say already started, the hell and full of shitness im gonna ever get . ! Xiong is the word.
Went to eat some Korean stuff which potion and zann organise i suspose, glad that peeps see changes in me, and thanks alot.

In Camp

Woah, right now im in camp, just got to know bout my posting and i got what i wanted. Kinda happy yet thinking of many other stuff. Aww guardsman! I've gonna stop eating if not all the training would be a total waste, jogging anyone, every saturday?


What are your thoughts? Share them with me will you =)

:(

M, is something going on ? Well, just tell me.

To you.

I'm shocked that you would reply to my post in such a way but why ? Could i ask ? If it mean really something to you , you would never give it back to me no matter what, also you passed to someone to pass it to me , something so important to me of cause. Still i threw it again, what good would it bring me ? A hope for you to come back ? i figure that you will never come back at all cost. I've been honest with you, as you once told me to , to share and to tell you whatever I'm feeling , thinking and planning to you, i did, well how about yourself ? Why am i , always in this kind of situation.? You said, i let you down, i admit i did let you down in a way that i do not know how to handle that kind of situation, because it didn't happen to me before, well how you choose to handle that? Breaking up and moving on to the next guy so quickly ? Sorry if i offended you in some way, That time you still choose to trust that guy, that saying I'm trying to use sort or trick get you back and to push the blame away from my self to him ? Disappointed i am that point of time. I'm still unhappy about some stuff but what can i do ? well i just have to stuff it down my throat, . You never know how hard it has been for me this few months , and i can see your enjoying. This phrase '' Loving someone means letting them go or Happiness is when you watch your loves one be happy'' i say it is bullshit, letting your love one go is definitely suffering . Keeping a secret, with my best friend and me flaring up? Anyone will also flare up, reason like afraid of letting me know than i flare up ? Thats like totally bullshit, If you were me, and i hide stuff with one of your girlfriends , you would break up , but i didnt choose to break up . You did. So What gonna happen next?

From Me

.

Just finish watching 'Gamer' full of action pack i tell you ! . It was like god damn great show althought there are many nude parts which i do not wanna share. Like someone told, if it was you watching with me, i would be damn happy.

Well i've just lost a 6 year friendship, didnt know what to say or how to save that friendship, i know you well brother and i know you wont change your mind. so that shall be the way if you want. ! Lifes bored, gonna booking this sunday, time passes really fast. People warn me about stuff, but i didnt wanna listen, cause M, i just think your worth it, i hope i wont regret . Thanks for everything.

Bye?

Goodbye to old memeries, Keeping them wouldn't be any good for me either, i knew you wouldn't come back to me at all cost, there no point is there? I threw the very 2 precious ring away just like that. You didnt felt a thing back than, at this point of time why should i too ? M not to worry im feeling all right . Thanks for whatever that happen latey, like you said, step by step, i will . :)

Shaked !

POP day was on 4th of september, Thx M for coming it just meant alot to me, Really. Right now im so darn tired, well my dad really shake me alot, as i see so much blood shooting right from his legs, well cause he had a operation in the early morning and that he tried to walk towards me and D wound just let go. It was like the first time i seen so much blood, well both my sis and mom was like shock and didnt know what to do, they just stared at each other, thinking about it really makes me smile.
Well, M, he wasnt your father to care or to be worried about it , yet your reaction, didnt know how to explain. Thanks alot, althought you wasnt there physically but you had show care. Im sure, i didnt make the wrong choice myself. thanks loves <3

77 points more to go !

Thanks Peeps

Well, im gonna book in back to Camp soon, next week is my POP oh my god, time just past for fast, it 3 months already and than i gonna have my GAIT, people complain about Ns being super boring all something, well i think it just the oppsite, NS is like god damn fun larhh, cant wait POP. =)
Thx M, n Group, accompany me for a belated birthday, at least you made me smile. Send me photos after you uploaded them, so i could too !

Birthday?

Well , just book out , and had the very WORST birthday alone . =)

Dead tired!

Fuck, haven't been sleeping since Friday, god damn how am i suppose to go on like that, anyway eventually i will get use to it i hope. Today AHM run was totally a big eye sight for me. For the very first time seeing so much people gathering in the early morning for just a run, serious i would just hope for a chance to join in that run.
Had an early celebration of my birthday with my family as i will not have time for the past 2 weeks training been tough but still it have to go on, there no running from it. But somehow it seem I'm getting attracted to training especially phycially ones.

Out with Lionel and 'Mummy', watched District 9 . Althought is abit fuck up but overall it just not quite a bad movie. Went on to find some old friends and headed home. Well, i realise myself, im changing into another person but rather a better than the last one.

Thanks 'Mummy' for your time. Closest Friend i had ever had . !

BACK TO CAMP SOON !

Remeber!

Dear Mother, you have to heed my advice really , rather be a toy to him right ? what i said to you is what you already know and should do, but instead your hiding behide this wall rather than coming out to face it. im glad that you allowed me to talks to you at least when i needed someone to talk to you lent me your listening ears. thx =)

Ppl nv hug a Pole, it just so unglam !
Speak and Promote good English !

Thanks (:

Hi my dearest son on earth ! (:

You must be sleeping like a pig by then. Do you know i was kinda worried that you might not like this skin. But now, I'm relief upon knowing you actually like it. Ah well ah well. Back to the main point now. The reason why i logged into your account again is to show my gratitude for your help all this while. You have been there giving me advises and of course nagging me to do what you think is the best for me. I really appreciate it tons. I know what i have been doing all this while. I might not change certain way of my thinking immediately, but definately somewhere in the future! So, no worries alright!

And , please takecare of yourself in camp alright. Though you may have certain
goal you wants to achieve but dont push yourself too much. It'll be bad if you
injuried yourself or fall sick isnt it?

Argh. This might be one of the longest essay i have write ever since i graduate from secondary school. I feel sick with my english so i shall end this quickly. But before that , one last thing! Pardon me for "hacking" into your blog ! *guilt.

Ciaos !

Smiles

Heys Thx alot !! Really ''hen gan xie ni '' didnt know how to spell it in englishs, well in han yin pin ying than =) Well just book out , surprise right you ? well me too , didnt know we could book out but , the catch is that tomorrow morning i had to book in at the floating plaform at the place where they held NDP. 8am had to be there and couldnt book out till the sunday afternoon or maybe at night , had to sleep over there too, ahh cause of the AHM , army half maraton.

Well, i agree that the skin simple but yeah , sometime things are simple would be best of all , like what you said , i cant think so much about the past , as it already the past but sometime my mind would just think when im at places where i think would be best to be with her , and the story would just go all over and over again , the rings are a lesson for me aint any just about memories, reading her blog and yeah , sit by and watch her go past her happy life ,ChickenRice was really once our favorite food ! ahh anyway enough said. if i would just to go on sayin i believe tears would just drop again .

Field Camp is coming ! Fear , and scare of dirty shittt ! couldnt really bathe but only powder bath , how smelly i could really be. Well, it just all men got to do! Somemore im gonna be IN CHARGE, hate that job , really it just alot of resposiblty to take . GOALS ? Guardsman for now. Well 'Mum' like you said , im the only one whom you just came across and someone who is thinking so god damn positive about National service , ! maybe yeah your son is just dumb !! Well, one day i will have to grow up and think, but for my childishness is not going to change well that is just me ! and i know your proud that i started thinking. still waiting for Your ''PROMOTION'' hahas ! Im gonna go out have dinner with my camp mates soon , Shall post tonight ~

Hi Hubert!


I hope you like this skin though it's really simple. I promise to make you a better one when my exams are over. Just bear with this one for the moment alright!